Heart Breaker

Heart-Breaker

Promise-Keeper

Perfect-Lover

Sky-Diver

Dream-Follower

Self-Believer

Me-Admirer

Morning-Amber

Evil-Sinner

Brain-Washer

Story-Teller

Hard-Worker

Heart-Breaker

Calorie-Counter

Awful-Singer

Awesome-Driver

Investment-Banker

Mistake-Repeater

Loudest-Amplifier

Back-Bencher

Heart-Breaker

World-Traveler

Business-Analyzer

High-Flyer

Punjabi-Abuser

Shock-Absorber

Dreams-Accomplisher

Innocent-Sinner

Football-Player

Heart-Breaker

People-Watcher

Favorite-Appetizer

Seven-course-Dinner

Intelligent-Dreamer

Circus-Joker

Juice-Bartender

Task-Master

Heart-Breaker

Deep-Thinker

The-Philosopher

My-Teacher

Will-Power

Taste-Maker

Super-Saver

Heart-Breaker

Love-Strengthener

Tale-Writer

Bear-Hugger

Heart-Breaker

Sharp-Shooter

All-Rounder

Lime-Refresher

Artistic-Photographer

Comic-Actor

Lazy-Procrastinator

Heart-Breaker

Lost-Mistaker

Merry-Maker

I-Kidnapper

Applications-Reminder

Brand-Manager

Tune-Hummer

Heart-Breaker

Chilled-Holidayer

Paneer-Eater

Hot-Gangster

Free-Thinker

Noise-Filter

Co-Driver

Life-Saver

Super-Heater

Heart-Breaker

-Himanshi

I agree Dr. Covey..

Cookie Splash II
Originally uploaded by Guido Musch

You have to decide what your highest priorities are and have the courage -- pleasantly, smilingly, non-apologetically -- to say 'no' to other things. And the way you do that is by having a bigger 'yes' burning inside.

Dr. Stephen Covey
American Author of The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People

Wow, l knew it! There certainly IS a bigger 'yes' burning inside me, l just didn't know how to put it in words. Dr Covey just did it .

Yes ! Finally there is someone who is re-assuring me and telling me that baby, you are not so wrong in saying No to a lot of could-have-been-fun- times, things and people.
You are not wrong in severing some ties and letting go of the others.
You are not wrong in not spending hours in the malls or hours on the phone in the last few months.
Apparently, the sweetheart has learnt to say No.
Apparently the sweetheart has grown up (ok, somewhat) to realize her priorities, the importance of time and also the in all certainty the importance of education (at least for my own self!)
So honey, l have learnt to say No NON-APOLOGETICALLY, though of course l am a lesser mortal, l procrastinate, l get distracted, l digress from subjects all the time.
But of course l am happy.
Life's teaching me interesting lessons.
Life is helping me grow up.
Staying away from my cocoon is teaching me being independent, take my own decisions, decide the kind of people l genuinely want to be and cut out the rest.
Well, that does make me socially unavailable most of the times, but then l am always there for those l genuinely love and l genuinely am concerned about.
l 'd rather give them all my time, love and money, than simply socializing for the sake of it.
I'd rather invest in new relationships with potential than the relationships which could have been there forever and still don't mean anything to me!
That's the latest priority in fact, besides the aim of getting more education, going back to school.
I know now much better than before what l want from life and what l want to give to life. There's something that the past almost-one-year has taught me!
Now it doesn't sound so much.
I might have been a social recluse in the past few months. That was just my need of getting away from the crowd and the commoners. That was my way of sorting out life.
The New Year's around the corner. I love this time of the year, for the Christmas makes me nostalgic and reminds me of the happy times of my school days.
There are New Year resolutions to be made. You speak to a lot of old people whom you haven;t spoken to , in long!
Even though, out of my last year's resolutions l could only complete two. Travel to two new states- l did three or four :)
l couldn't manage international travel ;-)
l made some absolutely wonderful new friends for life (hopefully)
l think l have made some decisions that would affect my life in the long run, hopefully positively again!
There's still A LOT that is left incomplete.. but what's the New Year for ? :)

Wars inside you.

Maybe I just wanna fly
Originally uploaded by Anna Inghardt

Have compassion for everyone you meet, even if they don't want it. What appears bad manners, an ill temper or cynicism is always a sign of things no ears have heard, no eyes have seen. You do not know what wars are going on down there where the spirit meets the bone.

Miller Williams
American Author and Poet

absolutely true thing!

"We're so self-important. So arrogant. Everybody's going to save something now. Save the trees, save the bees, save the whales, save the snails. And the supreme arrogance? Save the planet! Are these people kidding? Save the planet? We don't even know how to take care of ourselves; we haven't learned how to care for one another. We're gonna save the fuckin' planet? . . . And, by the way, there's nothing wrong with the planet in the first place. The planet is fine. The people are fucked! Compared with the people, the planet is doin' great. It's been here over four billion years . . . The planet isn't goin' anywhere, folks. We are! We're goin' away. Pack your shit, we're goin' away. And we won't leave much of a trace. Thank God for that. Nothing left. Maybe a little Styrofoam. The planet will be here, and we'll be gone. Another failed mutation; another closed-end biological mistake."
— George Carlin

P.S Thanks Japi-sorry it was too irresistible, to be not chepo'd ;-)

Rehna tu..

Rehna tu.. hai jaise tu...thoda sa dard tu..thoda sakoon..

Thoda sa resham.. tu humdum.. thoda sa khurdara..

Tujhe badalna naa chaahoon ..ratti bhar bhii sanam..

There is a story behind this song.. my story .. my association.. even though I experienced a distasteful ending after this.. but this song brings back fond memories..just exactly like its lyrics..

it brings back the 'dard'.....the anger, the disgust, the fear, the heartbreak..

even though while it lasted.. it always got with it the 'sakoon'..so much warmth ,so much excitement, so much sharing and so much happiness.....

sometimes, some songs just start to mean so much to you...sometimes you get associated with some songs.. it becomes 'mera gaana'...

I have so many such songs.. that bring back so much nostalgia.. every time they pop up on the radio or on my playlist.. some songs remain on my playlist forever.. nothing else matters, taal se taal mila, bakhuda tumhi ho, ishq bina... so really really 'close to my heart' songs.. all these songs have a chapter of my story..

I will write more about it in some days.. I make a mental blog of it everyday.. and then I forget the next day.. but this story deserves some space.. even though the chapter is closed.. the book is still open.. and you never know what happens in the end ;-)

lekin...

Rehna tu.. hai jaise tu..

Nothing new though , but it looks like I have come to hate changes that bring out disturbance and uncertainty to my life. I have been lingering on for quite some months now and it HAS To end now! It's so tough to focus on one thing, no matter how much free time you have but you have be absolutely disciplined with yourself to follow a routine and ostensibly, I appear to be the last person on earth to follow a time table . I prefer doing thing at my own sweet will, taking my time, but in the end, I know that the work will be accomplished.

I believe this time is extremely crucial, significant and important for me, but this remains a belief. When I calculate what have I actually done about it, there really ain't no answer.

I am blank.

I am uncertain.

I am unsure.

My plan has backfired.

This is not where I was to be, in my plan.

This is not what I wanted, in my plan.I

When I walk around in my campus, I look at the faces, I overhear their conversations, I observe their mannerisms, I see their ambitions and I realize this is not where I was meant to be. This is not where I am supposed to be at the moment.

This is wrong timing and wrong place and wrong people.

Why does it happen like this?

I don't forget being with wrong people. Sometimes you just can't figure out if it is wrong person and right time or wrong time and right person. Actually it could be the second possibility. Sometimes, it happens!

You meet someone and then you realize that how you wished you could get more of that person, and you really want to catch up on the lost time with that one person, but apparently, as it comes to be, it is wrong timing. Suddenly that person is gone .Suddenly there is detachment from one side and attachment from the other. So you know it was wrong timing . If it is meant to be, it would happen, but since it did not , it was just not to be. In fact, its better this way. At least, you can tell yourself that God has a better plan for you. He has a better person for you. Somebody who deserves you for who you are and who will know you and love you and support you. It could be a friend, a family, a soulmate. It doesn't always have to be a partner. There is much more to life than that.

Lately, I happened to observe absolutely-truly-madly-deeply-in-love kind of couples. Sometimes, it gets too cloy. Sometimes, it s maudlin. I don't disagree with it completely, but somethings are apparently better behind closed doors!

And I realize how I digress from the topic each time!

Anyway, the point being that even if I am not doing anything much, at least I know I am determined to make something out of my life, to fulfill my dreams and desires and to be someone whom I can recognize in the mirror.

Will carry on.

Wish me luck :)

^_^ wondering about somethings

Sometimes when you want something badly and you don't get it- is termed as a wonderful stroke of luck apparently! But why is the book 'Secret' written then, I wonder.

Isn't it supposed to tell you that what you want desperately , the universe conspires to make sure you receive it. I am absolutely flustered to find out that the belief that I'd that the Secret would work, apparently is shattered. I am not so sure anymore, in fact I would say I don't vouch for it anymore that it works!

Rather what basically works is luck- serendipity- you know, the luck by chance kind of stuff. It doesn't seem so wrong!

I don't disagree to the fact that 'hard work' would certainly play a role somewhere, but I also don't deny that some people just get what they want and the others keep slogging,for nothing , in the end. Your ambitions, your dreams and your goals- stuff that would have set you apart from the commoners- seems to be far-fetched, seems to be far from unachievable sorts! And then thoughts come to your mind like- basically, if I could turn back time is what I have been thinking a lot, these days. But suddenly I realize, why turn back time? Turn around the time you have now!

But it does take a lot of courage, a lot of guts and certainly, immense planning that you're sure doesn't backfire--> to actually be able to stand up, walk out, take a call, make a decision and straighten up your life. But I feel the smugness that has been crept inside me, since quite some years. Is it over-confidence or arrogance? I wonder! I know it could be an iota of both! but there is more to it.. that complacence needs to efface , it needs to be obliterated and replaced with something fresher.

Sometimes I feel I am running out of time.I don't know whom I am running from but I certainly know that I am late, I have taken some absofuckinglutely wrong decisions and ironically, I don't have anyone to blame but myself! The point being I am losing out on the fun now! I just think of what this time could've been or what would have happened- > but I am still dumb enough to not realize that time is NOW. You have to wake up to it. You have to face it and basically DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

Recently, a really severe ear infection was needed to make me realize how valuable certain things are in my life- such things like the ears that Joey in Friends joke that he doesn't feel his ears.. well, I feel them now, after 23 years, after the immense pain I certainly feel the ears, after almost not being able to hear for some days I realize how precious my ears are [:)] and hence I realise how precious each thing in my life is what I am taking for granted- highlighting the significance of time basically.. Time that we do nothing.. time that we have been doing nothing forever. . ..I certainly happen to know that this time will never come back. But the intricate complexities of my life right now are absolutely clueless about how to handle it. Sometimes you really need a mentor, a mentor who can just tell you what to do . Someone who could predict how to handle stuff. Someone who could tell you the perfect decisions to make. It's bizarre the way the last few months of my life have turned out to be.. never realized it to be like this.. but atleast the good part is now I know what I DON'T want in life. People tell me atleast it is good to know something, rather than knowing nothing!

I made so many New Year's resolutions the previous year and since we're nearing the end of the year, I am retrospecting that in how much of it have I been successful.

Am I taking life too seriously? Is it too much of deep thought? I am still wondering...